During the great ordeal, a gift of great importance was thrown away, and a lot of regret has been had since then. I regret that, and I wanted to make it up to you in a tiny little way.
Today I tried to collect some of the little things of our adventure together. And honestly, when I started this, it really was incredible to think about what we have already done together — and what we WILL do together as a couple. I'm excited to get married to you, and I love you very, very much. You're the best friend I've ever had.
I know it's a bit hard right now in terms of health. I think we will make it through, like we always do. I think I will keep being pulled back into you, and we will come out better for going through it. I am here to be with you through it all, thick or thin, to tell you that yes, stinky — I will still love you if you're a weird IV Pokémon OR a worm. That I will ALWAYS be there for you, even when you're grumpy or "hard to be with."
I am here with you right the fuck now, and I have never cared or been more invested in US than right now. I think this is the life and relationship that has and will define my life. I want to cherish every little moment. I'm sorry for my weaknesses as your partner sometimes. I know I am not a perfect or easy person to be with.
But know this. I am yours. I stand with you. And you have ONE HELLA STINKY BOY (and Tony) for a lifetime.
I am excited for all that life will have. Even if it's as simple as just existing or making it through the day. Or as crazy as a late night in Japan to an early shinkansen. It can be getting buffeted by winds up a pass with a thunderstorm coming, or a cozy day in where we don't want to do laundry. I am here for all of it, and I will be here for every potential version of "it" and our relationship to come.
You have me for life, and I will find ways to love you deeper throughout the rest of that life.
Happy Valentine's Day, my one and only stinky.